There is a boy...we've known eachother since long ago...2 years ago...we enter a same group of study..
and after 2 years passed we just say hello or even not greeting eachother at all..
we enter the same class. But he always fall asleep a few minutes after the class begin..or...he will text me to sign for his attendance...
And we again meet at study tour's committee...
we enter the same bus but rarely talk to eachother...until oneday he ask something and tell a story...and the day after he switch seat with my seatmate (we're in a cupid mission to match our friends) we talk about many things...and for the rest of the study tour we become seatmates...
sometimes we have a great conversations, laughing and cannot stop, tell a funny story, listen to a song, but sometimes we just keep silent and didn't talk at eachother...
i started to realized that i feel something different, its just happy to talk with him, or seeing him smile.. or else...the point is, i feel comfort beside him..but i just try to keep my feeling and try to discard it away remember that I still have something to finish....i still have a responsibility to someone..
but its funny how oneday, when we go to club and I drink a lot. I tell my friends everything about my feeling, and that night i remembered he came to our room, asking if im okay...im not really sure if he listened to what i said or not...
and the study tour ends. I think this too should ends, a temporary happiness and feeling. My friends also said that after a long holiday everything will be back like before. And i believed it...
but my friends was wrong, i didn't even forget about my feeling, but it grew stronger day by day, everytime he is around, my heart beats twice faster. I can't talk to him or joking around normally like i did to my guy friends...i'm become an idiot and speechless when i have to talk to him...
and i'm so happy like hell for every minutes he talk to me...
My friends said that he isn't handsome, but everytime i look into his eyes or see him smile, i feel like im melting as ice on frying pan..he has a very sweet smile that i cant erase from my mind.
he often talk, but when he do, he did it well, bring the conversation also the mood increase.
and he just too kind, very kind.
always happy whenever he lend me his jacket or just ask simple things. But i admit he is one of the gentlemen.
He is very simple, being himself and not doing anything ridiculous...and thats make him stunning, among all the boys who trying so hard to look handsome,famous or rich...
I know i'm not more than friend to him, and maybe he wont have the same feeling too me..
sometimes i just keep it in my mind not to expect, because i know it someday will be hurt like hell if i have to accept that he finds his love...
and im so affraid to face craps like my first....
ive try to give up many times, but i simply fail everytime i see him...
~n0e~
and after 2 years passed we just say hello or even not greeting eachother at all..
we enter the same class. But he always fall asleep a few minutes after the class begin..or...he will text me to sign for his attendance...
And we again meet at study tour's committee...
we enter the same bus but rarely talk to eachother...until oneday he ask something and tell a story...and the day after he switch seat with my seatmate (we're in a cupid mission to match our friends) we talk about many things...and for the rest of the study tour we become seatmates...
sometimes we have a great conversations, laughing and cannot stop, tell a funny story, listen to a song, but sometimes we just keep silent and didn't talk at eachother...
i started to realized that i feel something different, its just happy to talk with him, or seeing him smile.. or else...the point is, i feel comfort beside him..but i just try to keep my feeling and try to discard it away remember that I still have something to finish....i still have a responsibility to someone..
but its funny how oneday, when we go to club and I drink a lot. I tell my friends everything about my feeling, and that night i remembered he came to our room, asking if im okay...im not really sure if he listened to what i said or not...
and the study tour ends. I think this too should ends, a temporary happiness and feeling. My friends also said that after a long holiday everything will be back like before. And i believed it...
but my friends was wrong, i didn't even forget about my feeling, but it grew stronger day by day, everytime he is around, my heart beats twice faster. I can't talk to him or joking around normally like i did to my guy friends...i'm become an idiot and speechless when i have to talk to him...
and i'm so happy like hell for every minutes he talk to me...
My friends said that he isn't handsome, but everytime i look into his eyes or see him smile, i feel like im melting as ice on frying pan..he has a very sweet smile that i cant erase from my mind.
he often talk, but when he do, he did it well, bring the conversation also the mood increase.
and he just too kind, very kind.
always happy whenever he lend me his jacket or just ask simple things. But i admit he is one of the gentlemen.
He is very simple, being himself and not doing anything ridiculous...and thats make him stunning, among all the boys who trying so hard to look handsome,famous or rich...
I know i'm not more than friend to him, and maybe he wont have the same feeling too me..
sometimes i just keep it in my mind not to expect, because i know it someday will be hurt like hell if i have to accept that he finds his love...
and im so affraid to face craps like my first....
ive try to give up many times, but i simply fail everytime i see him...
~n0e~