I have this brother,
he had been my role model since I was in junior high.
he always been my standard when it come to see a boy
the way he laugh, the way he treat me, the way he cared for me.
well I growing up pursuing him
I want to be clever
I want to be beautiful
I want to be a better version of me
just to impress him,
while he and I slowly losing contact
and we are not more than a strangers now, I guess.
8 years passed since the last day I cried at the airport
when he departed to the third largest city in its state
17 UTC's gap
studying medical
and I dont really remember
when the last time we chat through media
I was hoping someday I could visit him there
but I dont remember either last time I pursuing that dream
then I heard about his graduation this winter
I just can't help want to see his graduation
so badly
but maybe it's just to far away
~n0e~